A Nocturnal Reverie

Monday, August 20, 200711:59 PM♥

Its gon' be very disappointing if you hear this coming from me. I took mc for today again. Honestly, I didnt mean to. I was careless, as my hp was not set out from vibration mode, thus this explains why the alarm was totally redundant. Anyway, I could only tell the doctor I had a very strong headache..What shocked me was, she actually detected that I had sore throat, slight cold so and so. In the end, I was told to have more rest as I'm sick. Still, I made my way to the war front (school), to discuss a few things for all the upcoming events. Damn, I was feeling fucking miserable. Like, there's no more faces I want to see, like nothing tastes good anymore, like I wanted to get my ass out of the place as quickly as possible. You must be thinking why I cannot face things like that? Many places out there are worst than this place, why cant I take such hardships? Like, this isnt the first time. You want to tell me TO GROW right? Well, this is the only place I have to handle such complexity. I dont get this from anywhere else. Humans come across as the hardest thing to deal with, not even money..When problems strike on them, they pull you in and make you struggle along. This is the time when " I will be there for you." means nothing anymore. This is the time when "Action speaks louder than words" means everything. School is school and trust me, I hate school. But, I will never let this feeling get to my performance for school work. I'm lousy with emotions, but I still want to be capable with work.

Wont be back here anytime soon.
Tues-Fri, school in the day to noon,
work from 5pm to 2am after that.

Sunday, August 19, 200711:57 PM♥

18th, new asia bar ( NAB ) & zouk with kakaktuas.

No wonder its often heard as the hottest drinking hole in Singapore.
The ambience, the music, the drinks. Bonus thing is, men below 23 are not allowed to enter. Theres' a big difference because of that. Anyway, I'm so glad that all of us went in free of charge, without age restrictions as most of us from kakaktua are working as part-timers over there. The best has yet to be mentioned.. The drinks were all free as well. If it wasnt, guessed the bill would have been $500 over. Well, I did feel awkward taking the guest's lift up instead of the back lift for staff, using the guest's toilet instead of staff toilet. Lastly, I must admit that I felt pampered that day as we took our seats upstairs at the 71st floor, which is opened only for members. Staff privilege? :)

Side track alittle..To the equinox restaurant.

Then it was zouk after NAB, to celebrate kaile's birthday, also to mark all members of Kakaktua finally turned legal 18. ;0) While on our way there, a few of them were already half drunk. We still enjoyed but honestly, trance sucked.
That's ron behind.
Tracy & mg.

kaile & me.
Labels: kakaktua turned legally 18.

Monday, August 13, 20078:26 AM♥

Im feelin' it. Everything is coming all at once again.
Im lookin' forward to weekends. Where its just family, kakaktuas, cousins, and some other friends. Im not even looking forward to school anymore. Jada, this is where we're so alike. Still, let's face it bravely.

STUCKED.

Sunday, August 12, 20072:48 AM♥

Taken by Jeremy, courtesy of PSP.

Saturday was meaningfully spent. Morning with cousins and relatives. Lunch with family & Douglas's godparents, met up with Jada & her brother in the evening, and then went crazy with Jeremy and gang.

I learnt...

What comes after exploration?
Exploitation.
What comes after exploitation?
explosion.
What comes after explosion?
Depression.

Anyway, he can be quite a good entertainer. What I know is, I owe him too much. He's always the one helping. Me, receiving. What I know secondly is, he's extremely talented. Jeremy, don't let all these talents put to a waste. I know you will make it big in the future and you definitely will ! Not new Not old Sentosa was an eye opener. Not very good Not very bad Changi Nasi Lemak was still delicious somehow. Not very scary Not very calm Mount pleasant cemetry was enjoyable for sure. That part when we got "chased" was like rush hour 4.
Thank you all.

I drove ......
And vision became obstructed.
I cried ......
We're like worlds apart now.
New york, Singapore.
Morning, Night.
Caucasians, Asians.
Hamburgers, Roti Prata.

But I hope you stay the same.

Thursday, August 09, 200711:54 PM♥

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I WAS THE HAPPIEST GIRL ON 8TH AUGUST 2007.
No shy.

8th, 8pm.
Went to Hog's Breath Cafe @ chijmes with the usual people and special guests, alisha, faza,sudhir and lovely brother douglas ! We spent soo much quality time together. The food and the company made it even better. How can I not enjoy myself to the fullest when everything was well planned, and the people present were all important people in my life? Though it was just a 2hour session, I'm more than happy that everyone made it happen. Before we left, I was surprised, yet again. They bought a mango cake ( my favourite ) for me, and paid my bill at the same time. Seriously, if only I knew that will happen, I would have just ordered a drink. You guys spent TOO MUCH ON ME. And when asked, " is it worth it? " Faza said, "its worth every last penny i have.." They have no idea how touched was I, how hard I tried to hold back my tears... Its not how much they spent on me, but how much they went the extra mile just to make me happy. THANK YOU ALL for not even thinking twice taking out a single cent.
Sudhir,faza,alisha, thanks for coming. Though we dont normally stick to one another in school, but deep down in our hearts, I know we're somewhat,somehow thinking of one another...I appreciate.

Samm: I dont know how can I survive without you.
Thomas: From 1159(7th)-1159(8th), you surprised me non-stop. I will keep this memory with me for a lifetime. Luckily, I asked you to join me for lunch during the first day of school.
Joyce: You've changed into a very beautiful person. You may not realise this, but you're a better person now. THANK you for being such a great great friend.
Terence: Always teased by me yet still okay with it. Very generous of u to spend on me when ure not even working.. 31st is coming. Start counting..
Tri: Though we had hard times communicating, but I want you to know that we all treasure you. :) Stay in Singapore forever.
Faza: From grp 2.5 till today, you've always been here !
3 words for you, I LOVE YOU !
Alisha: Thanks for supporting me in whatever I do, and thanks for coming down on my very special day. :)
Sudhir: You didnt even hesitate a second when invited down for the dinner. :)
You were there to listen when I needed a ear, you were there to protect me from bitches and there for me when I needed opinion. See, you're now almost everything. Like how a brother will treat his sister.... :) THANKS.

A BIG BIG BIG thanks to the following :
Dtm06.family.cousins.roger.denah.vivi.redzwan.leonard.
steph.steven.kangya.rudy.alfie.nadia.brown.qingqing.jiaxin.
weihun.peiqi.rach.namz.wendy.yongrui.shihua.jannah.peiching.
piaojie.bobby.michelle.krystle.gladys.bala.aloysius.kevin.elleen.
tanna.shimin.azmi.fahmie.johnny.yunus.carris.dom.yiting.naz.cindy.
adeline.lukai.sidah.shidee.samuel.victor.morris.william.jasmine.sparco.
benvis.edward.kaiting.tracy.kaile.ron.kenneth.jialun.mingguang.ben.
For their warm wishes, gifts and blessings.
This is my happiest birthday so far. :))
Best birthday because of each and everyone...
Labels: Happiest best 19th.

11:06 AM♥

From Aloysius.
"Me to you" card. My favourite. :)
Didnt expect anything from him..

From the lovely people, Thomas, tri, samm, joyce & terence !

2Gb. Honestly, I feel bad accepting it as a gift. It's a gift too expensive for me. Further more I truly understand that we students don't have the time to work, hence not very rich on our own. I really appreciate what you guys have done for me on my special day. And I will treat this mp3 player better than my Handphone. Will try not to drop it everyday. ok? ;)

From Kakaktua!

TED BAKER. Didnt know that its such a high-end label till I stepped into the shop. Will make full use of it. Thanks people.

From Faza & Sudhir.
Pierre Cardin ahem ahem.
They really got good taste. Sudhir, this is so wrong isnt it? You're a guy.
From iakul.
Thank you.

From Alisha.
OH my, You're really thoughtful.
As I said, dont think its nothing. Your gift means heaven to me.
From Bok.
I thought its a coin bank. haha. But its actually a speaker.
Cute. Thanks again. :)

From Magical pianist.

From Faith, Mel, Xinxiu, Kian, Glenn, & Roy.
Precious moment, one of my favourites. Faith, I know u planned it.
Thank you everyone for remembering. I'm proud to be me.

From Douglas.
I love you la.

From Jiaxin, Namz & Rachel.
Jiaxin, you came down all the way to school just to hand me my birthday present. You sacrificed your rest, your time just for me. 09.09, my turn.

From Shidee.
Thank you so much! Thanks to your sister too.. she called me.

From Steven.

From Charwin.

Never fail to amaze me with his gifts. :) He can wrap better than girls, or at least better than me.
Labels: Presents.

10:39 AM♥

MY BIRTHDAY

Celebration with the kakaktuas on the 7th-8th.

We finally reunited after some time. Their company is more important than anything else. We were never bored, never sad together.

12am 8th.

Daddy gave me a curfew for the very first time, that is I must reach home by 12am sharp. He invited the kakaktuas home. :) Upon reaching home, douglas (younger bro) looked really upset & he told me, " sis, im sorry, i really didnt have the time to buy a proper cake..." You see, the cake wasnt important to me either so I was really fine. Mum & dad then took a candle and asked the rest to just sing a birthday song.. The lights went off and when my parents and kakaktuas started singing, Douglas came down with a cake on his hand.. I WAS SURPRISED. That wasnt the end.. What really freaked the hell out of me was that thomas, amy, yanli & tri followed behind douglas. Oh btw, they are friends from shatec. Who on earth will expect them to turn up when we all were supposed to have a test the next day. Whats more, the kakaktuas didnt really know my classmates well..But they took the effort to co-ordinate. This I must really thank THOMAS, DOUGLAS, JIALUN, DADDY & MUMMY. I came to realised that they planned this quite some time ago. This is the very first time, my family were involved. :)) The very first time I had a celebration at 12am sharp. The very first time I am so so fucking surprised. The very first time I understand the word, "togetherness".

I still couldnt believe I caught no hints that all of them were in this together.

MY SURPRISES.

Kakaktuas. FULL SQUAD.

Labels: THE VERY FIRST TIME

Tuesday, August 07, 20075:44 AM♥

I have so much to say.
But time is not on my side.
What I know is, Wednesday is a day,
And I have a bloody paper on that day.

Oh wells, come what may,
I'm still gon' catch up with the kakaktuas later tonight.

Some started asking for my new url. It feels good telling the worthed ones the link, at the same time, it feels even greater telling those nosey classmates, " Why close down my blog ar? Never close down. I just changed the new url. Too many people kpoh and read. " This is the price to pay. Being nosey is one, being nosey and spreading around things which arent true is the killer one. And my blog is definitely not a place for you to get the latest gossips. So to the worthed ones, CHEERS ! WELCOME TO THE FREE BLOGGING WORLD. ;)

Monday, August 06, 200710:13 AM♥

THIS FEELS GOOD. :)
Labels: new url

Sunday, August 05, 20079:37 AM♥

A BIG KUDOS to all those who organised this event, especially george, kian,glenn,mark,roy, and mr refree fir. They did it for the class & I'm proud of them. Also, congratulations to the guys, our class team "mustang" came in first! Not forgetting the girls who came, especially rynette who stayed up late to do the poms, annabella for doing the sandwiches and angeline, the girl who did all good things behind the scenes. :) Forget about the tan, I really enjoyed myself.
Labels: Dtm league.

12:07 AM♥

Yet another shot. "BANG".
;) Brother was just beside me and shielded me from that shot.
Sometimes people just love talking about the bad things. Most of the times, they are not even true. Sometimes people just love carrying around what others said. This i wonder when will they even know whether it is true. And it annoys me when people do not read carefully but trying to pretend they know all things. So brother laughed when he knew what happened..
He asked me, " Why bother? Maybe they're just jealous? or they dont even know you. " Fortunately, he managed to put some senses into me and the thought of YOU being no one to me pleases me in the end. Boy, put your guns down and look into the mirror instead. Thank goodness once more, you're just like the few others.

You expected this yes?

*BANG!*

Thursday, August 02, 20078:30 AM♥

Brothers, the ones you go to for help, for comfort, for advice, when you just had a fight with Mom and Dad, another girl, or another boy. The ones you look up to, share jokes, and talk to about everything. Brothers, they're there for the good times, the bad, and everything in between. As kids, my elder brother and I lived together, we fought, we laughed, we cried, just like any other siblings. Days from now, we will grow slowly apart. And I wonder about the man I'd get to know 3 years later..He for sure is going to be somebody in the near future.

Still remembered we had a great argument when we were at norway but he made things better by hugging me tightly when a dog came extremely near me the following day..He's also the one who will give me assurance whenever I'm afraid of heights. There was once, we went around town and I was eyeing on the baby-g watch. The next thing, he bought it for me. He will also make it a point to bring me out for my meals when daddy & mummy were abroad. What I'm trying to say is, he really dotes on me in the simplest way. I know I'm always protected & loved because I have him. Now that he's leaving for good, we're going to learn how not to depend on each other. His turning point in life starts here...

People always ask,

"Do you wish to have sisters? ".

I say, " not at all."

Now you know, he's the reason why.
Labels: My brother, the man of a greater kind.