A Nocturnal Reverie

Thursday, April 12, 200711:51 PM♥

oh wells, MIXED FEELINGS AGAIN.

:) HAPPY.
Happy cos' my gums are healthy now! No more pain.
oh yes, im quite pleased with this new semester and my new group members.
Very sure that we will be able to work well together. Cos' i have almighty duke, the very easy going joycelyn, the always so optimistic terence, the flirt minh tri and not forgetting the dino who keeps me alive. GLAD.

:( UNHAPPY.
Got this "unknown" call.
Picked up and he went, " hello jocelyn (with a non-local accent) i really love you. i love you. "
me: HUH!? LOVE? I LOVE YOU!?
him: YA, i love you. hehehehe.*evil laugh*
me: hahaha daddy right? stop fooling around. hahaha at the airport?
him: ya, haha i call to say i love u lar. we're going.. remember...

--------Another unknown call interrupted-------------

me: pa, hold on ok. VERY FAST ONE. one min.
---------i went on to answer the next line--------------
me: hello?
her: hello! we're leaving ar...
me: mummy?! haha. papa on another line! call me back in one min please. i talk to him first.
her: hahhaah! he is just beside me, using another phone! i didnt know he was calling you. we're using the free airport phoneline!

---------the conversation went on------------------

Walked home with a heavy heart. Upon returning, i saw some cash on the table.. Didnt expect my dad to leave those spare cash for me. Douglas (younger bro) told me, " i really hate this feeling. so lonely hor? ". i cant agree less. The whole family is just so used to one another. Now that they wont be around for 12 days, it will just look like another empty house. I really dont mind feeding the fishes, doing the laundry or cleaning the stairs.. Im just worried. This time round, they are going to a "communist" country. NORTH KOREA. Yes, i dont have to describe much about this country and somehow everyone knows, it isnt an ideal place for tourists. A dangerous place, a closed country it is, with many strict rules for the tourists to obey. Mum even said they won't be able to call back. Cameras are not even allowed in certain places. ok, i better not go on. Im scaring myself. I guess i just have to really understand.. Leaving Singapore is the only way out for my dad to really free himself from the workload and the stress. This is the only time he can rest well.

Such a grown-up u may say.. but i'm still not very good at handling goodbyes.
Labels: family oriented., Smell of tears