Monday, April 30, 20072:51 PM♥
Be back on thurs & i will probably be able to update on fri.
No promises. Anyway, check out this website.
http://www.rhythmsdelmundo.com/
Im in love with the songs in this album. Doesn't appeal to all..
Well, if u've got taste, go get it. All profits will go to the artist's project earth, the climate change awareness and disaster relief charity. Global warming is something we are all responsible for !
Lastly, happy labour day to all :)
misses... :))
Labels: cuba
12:00 AM♥
Thats for fri & sat. :(
Weekend ended in sucha way..
Be back shortly.
Wednesday, April 25, 200711:08 PM♥
Mp3 player spoilt. ( Im missing the songs badly )
Nike running shoes torn.
E870 dropped from 3rd to 2nd level. Say hi to new scratches.
Ok the above are really bad. Honestly, im upset. SAMM were right..
THE GOOD:
Going kl to see my new home.
This also means that i can drive there (illegally) & enjoy the long journey.
THE GOOD & THE BAD:
TP soon. Ready or not ready, ive yet to be evaluated by dad.
If i make it, lesser on publics. ;) Drink & drive or shake that arse & misbehave?
NOT ME. But im kinda excited. Whoever won't ?
Put aside the good. I have to settle the bad.
Labels: obviously the good and the bad.
Monday, April 23, 200711:12 PM♥
It's been my experience that what's underneath jealousy is fear of one kind or another. Jealousy is about fears. Fear of abandonment, fear of loss of love, fear of being dishonored in the relationship, unresolved issues from past relationships, lack issues, poor self esteem, cover or mask for things from the past that you haven't healed yet, vindictive or a desire for revenge that is misguided towards someone else, and lastly, fear of neglection. When jealous feelings come up, it's usually because we're afraid that we won't get our needs of one kind or another met. BUT even if you try to bury your jealousy and never verbalize it to anyone, you have to realize that you are building walls and separation between you and other people until you deal with it and heal what's underneath.
It doesn't help just by staring at me. Worst, coming up to me with some text messages after the stare doesn't appeal to me either. I simply had enough of you and your jealousy which is sadly, not known to yourself. Well, come back to me when you know who you really want to be.
Other than that, ive moved on !
Continue sailing in your boat of misery... ADIOS !
-stop the oh-im-a-spare-look.-
Labels: GREEN EYED MONSTER
Sunday, April 22, 20071:12 AM♥
An event catering by the Diploma in Culinary Skill, C CLASS @ the CHARCOAL.
The 2 men behind the scenes. So proud of them! Shidee on the left, Daryl on the right.
The few of us. :)
Thomas and Douglas.
The appertiser : Tuna tartare wrapped in hickory wood smoked Norwegian salmon, with dill dressing accompanied by garden salad, tossed in orange vinaigrette. 
Soup : Cream of curry chickpea soup served with succulent calamari and grissini hebed breadstick.
Shebert : Cucumber lime and mint.
My main course : Roasted roulade of chicken and mushroom topped with glazed champange and red grape jus accompanied with mashed herbed potatoe and seasonal vegetables.
Desert : Chocolate earl grey. ( Which i barely touch. Not because it didnt taste good, but i dont normally take chocolate. )
Glancin' around the restaurant, i observed that most of the guest were supporters of the student chefs, - relatives and friends. Though im not the one, but it is still good to see them comin' just to support their children. I guessed shidee felt the same way too, no wonder u were excited the day before. ;) This event compared to the previous i had, is so much better.
The food, the seating arrangement and the reservn.
There wasnt any waitin' time.
For this, i applaud you and the rest behind this EC ! WELL DONE.
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SAMM CHU! surprised me.. yet again.
She bought me a wine opener! Something which i didnt expect.
" why did u buy that for me? " i asked.
And all that she could answer was, " cos' you were so sad over it. "
Those words shot right into me..
No one till now could understand me as much as she can.
She's always the one. Whenever im sad or happy...
Time and time again, she will do anything within/ beyond her limits just to please me.
SAMM, thanks for loving me, thanks for having me in your life.
Sometimes, i wonder, will i ever understand what is LOVE & FAMILY if i havent met you...
Why family? cos you're like one of mine.
AND you're the reason why i make it a point to go to school every single day. :)
Labels: SISTERS
Friday, April 20, 200710:20 PM♥
Jealousy in you, anger in others, no justice to me.
Liars, backstabbers, four-faced.
Pretty on the surface, poison under it.
He has a story to tell, you have a story to tell.
When can mine be heard? :(
If u like her, face the fact, go for it.
She has a bf? Then wait for it.
If u realised u do like him alil, face the fact, tell about it.
You have a bf? Then decide seriously.
How funny, that it is through me that finally both of u realised how much u cared for each other.
In the end, im made the nuisance.
IM THE JERK.
Im the one who lacks the understandin'.
Im the fucker, the spare tyre, the toy.
If this isnt enough to spoil the week, i lost my wine opener given by mich. Totally abhor the feelin' of losin' something.. especially when its not on purpose, whether small or not.
My bad, my bad.
Labels: ugh
Monday, April 16, 200711:34 PM♥
Someone told me, "jaws, its time u get a life. "
Well, what is no life then? i pondered while on the way home,
Well, what is no life then? i pondered while on the way home,
and tried to find 10 answers to the question. I thought i have one.
Most of the time, i either work or school. Thus, i make it a point to devote some time for family on the weekends. Family matters as usual. Then, that will be all for the week. What else? I would spare the rest of the little time catching up with friends, if not, gym would be the place you will probably see me at. There isn't much interest in going to clubs, hanging around somewhere accompanied with bottles of alcohol, or doing nothing outside. Apart from finding clubbing alil sleazy, i dont think its worthed paying the sum for. Although, there might be only a temporary self-relief or entertainment there, nothing its unfair, its in exchange of the money you pay. But what's after the session? An option of hangover, ending up somewhere u don't remember going to, or getting into troubles with girls. You may even end up without your pants on when the daylight comes! Serve u right if u end up at some back alley, with nelly without any money and thats the time u have to call your nanny. However, this doesn't mean i won't even drop by one. Well, an opinion of mine u don't have to agree about. After all, i have no "life", the kind people always talk about. But i dare say i own a righteous one.
Most of the time, i either work or school. Thus, i make it a point to devote some time for family on the weekends. Family matters as usual. Then, that will be all for the week. What else? I would spare the rest of the little time catching up with friends, if not, gym would be the place you will probably see me at. There isn't much interest in going to clubs, hanging around somewhere accompanied with bottles of alcohol, or doing nothing outside. Apart from finding clubbing alil sleazy, i dont think its worthed paying the sum for. Although, there might be only a temporary self-relief or entertainment there, nothing its unfair, its in exchange of the money you pay. But what's after the session? An option of hangover, ending up somewhere u don't remember going to, or getting into troubles with girls. You may even end up without your pants on when the daylight comes! Serve u right if u end up at some back alley, with nelly without any money and thats the time u have to call your nanny. However, this doesn't mean i won't even drop by one. Well, an opinion of mine u don't have to agree about. After all, i have no "life", the kind people always talk about. But i dare say i own a righteous one.
Erm, strawberry shortcake by the seaside anyone?
Haha, so romantic ?
Yes, because im a girl.
wait long long...
Labels: Not my life.
1:35 AM♥
ok, monkey FACE. Im in a confusion state.
Thursday, April 12, 200711:51 PM♥
:) HAPPY.
Happy cos' my gums are healthy now! No more pain.
oh yes, im quite pleased with this new semester and my new group members.
Very sure that we will be able to work well together. Cos' i have almighty duke, the very easy going joycelyn, the always so optimistic terence, the flirt minh tri and not forgetting the dino who keeps me alive. GLAD.
:( UNHAPPY.
Got this "unknown" call.
Picked up and he went, " hello jocelyn (with a non-local accent) i really love you. i love you. "
me: HUH!? LOVE? I LOVE YOU!?
him: YA, i love you. hehehehe.*evil laugh*
me: hahaha daddy right? stop fooling around. hahaha at the airport?
him: ya, haha i call to say i love u lar. we're going.. remember...
--------Another unknown call interrupted
me: pa, hold on ok. VERY FAST ONE. one min.
---------i went on to answer the next line--------------
me: hello?
her: hello! we're leaving ar...
me: mummy?! haha. papa on another line! call me back in one min please. i talk to him first.
her: hahhaah! he is just beside me, using another phone! i didnt know he was calling you. we're using the free airport phoneline!
---------the conversation went on------------------
Walked home with a heavy heart. Upon returning, i saw some cash on the table.. Didnt expect my dad to leave those spare cash for me. Douglas (younger bro) told me, " i really hate this feeling. so lonely hor? ". i cant agree less. The whole family is just so used to one another. Now that they wont be around for 12 days, it will just look like another empty house. I really dont mind feeding the fishes, doing the laundry or cleaning the stairs.. Im just worried. This time round, they are going to a "communist" country. NORTH KOREA. Yes, i dont have to describe much about this country and somehow everyone knows, it isnt an ideal place for tourists. A dangerous place, a closed country it is, with many strict rules for the tourists to obey. Mum even said they won't be able to call back. Cameras are not even allowed in certain places. ok, i better not go on. Im scaring myself. I guess i just have to really understand.. Leaving Singapore is the only way out for my dad to really free himself from the workload and the stress. This is the only time he can rest well.
Such a grown-up u may say.. but i'm still not very good at handling goodbyes.
Labels: family oriented., Smell of tears
Tuesday, April 10, 200711:48 PM♥
a). CROWD CONTROL. Maybe the controller can go " Eh! that blue shirt over there! you dont cut here cut there ar! NO cut queue ar! stand behind cos u come later! let the earlier ones go in first lar! *si bei kiasu ar u "
b). Have longer trains. Which is impossible as having longer trains means longer tracks and platforms are needed. All the train stations must be rebuilt now that the length of the train fits nicely according to the length of the waiting platforms.
c). Have waiting queues. You know what? Like those lines u wait in before u take the roller coaster rides. First come first serve. One in, one out. FAIR?
d). Now that I try to be serious, I run out of ideas.
Singaporeans really practice kiasu-cism. They just don’t know how probability works. People with sense would rather let the passengers get out before trying to get in. MORE CHANCES isn’t it? Rather than not letting anyone out and trying to squeeze in. yeah, in the end, your well pressed uniform looks like another 2 –day- never- wash- already uniform.
Despite kiasu-cism, this army man caught my attention. And I avail myself of the opportunity to really speak of him. He helped a blind man to board the train. In the end, he wasn’t able to squeeze himself in. I wondered if he was rushing to book in. I have no idea. But im sure all that he was left with was worries. Worries of the blind man. Whether he could balance himself inside the cabin, whether somebody else will guide him safely while terminating at jurong east, whether the kiasu Singaporeans will give way to him. His good deed calmed me down. Finally I have alluded to TKS ( his initials on his army uniform), because to him- if he will accept the tribute of a total stranger- I have dedicated this entry to him. Why have i alluded to this man? I have alluded to him because I think I see in him an intellect profounder and more unique contemporaries have yet recognized. His humanity and the little time he had sacrificed to help others but not even himself while the others just buzz their way through, weave in and out without considering others, stepping on others without even apologizing, and selfish people who came later and cut in the others, some even hang around the mightier-than-thou attitudes. When can these people start to spare a thought for the others? Since everything else is accustomed, ( peak/rush hours, heavy passengers locations), we just have to try our best to co-operate. Give in alittle, GIVE WAY.
If only everyone can sacrifice that lil time to do a good deed every now and then..If only people start to learn how to give way.. IF ONLY..
Labels: HEARTLESS AND SENSELESS
Sunday, April 08, 20075:46 PM♥
i can't even eat...
AND i don't feel like doing anything!
THE PAIN is worst than having a cut on your face.
shit this.
Saturday, April 07, 200710:37 PM♥
UBIN on monday, with 2 of the most important people. samm and weihun. Their first time meeting each other. :0) I had only 3 mosq bites. WELL PROTECTED. Other than Ubin, nothing significant about my holiday.. How much can i do within a week? OH yes, i managed to watch pursuit of happiness and 300. At thomas's theatre. Nice place. Everything is free. TODAY.
Just came back from Sebastien's. EXCELLENT food. Was worried that i will not be able to indulge due to the pain in my gum, but i still did. Now u know, how well the food tasted like.
YUMMY'licious. With no doubts but a strong will, i will want to go again. haha.
9:25 PM♥
It's always something to work there. I should say i'm quite in luck to be treated nicely by the others there. Those 3 days, i had the greatest contact with vivi and niza. 2 very nice seniors. And the funny issue is, i not only learnt about work, but i learnt something else, which is very much among us. ;) Fashion show ended well but the dressers looked better at acting.. Soldiers threw away their pens, threw away their books and went to the front as common soldiers. Why cant the dressers just put away their high heels, rough bangles and sharp rings just to work? Dont they have a single thought that those of which mentioned could tear the dresses? Dresses of which could cost more than 4 digits. Some of them were just in there to depend on us while they just idle. Then again, i wondered, why were the dressers hired for, when they dont even know how simple zipping works, how the clothes should be worn and what is the right sequence for the models to walk. Things that they should do were not carried out well. There was nothing that we could praise about. And the company of theirs shall not be named. What a nightmare having them at the backstage.
Apart from that, the sole of my feet hurt badly yesterday. I havent been standing for such long hours since i last worked.. They hurt even more when i add on pressure to it, such simple actions like walking. i shall not complain that the management are not humane just because im not allowed to sit. Its just so wrong for the walk-ins to see the salespeople sitting down. It's either going to portray that business aint doing well, or the people are lazy. Maybe both. After all, its a high end boutique. And now that my sole gets a lil bit better, my gum hurts and i cant really bite. I think its too heaty. For that, i think i can just bear with it. Hopefully, time kills.
Btw, im not sure if this person i'm gon' talk about will come across this site again, but i hope he does. He managed to beset my mind with so much uncertainties within a matter of weeks. How exactly do u feel if a guy turns to you for help repeatedly when he has some trouble with his girl, & when he has nothing better to do, he msgs u or even ask you out almost every week? How will u feel then when he was fueled with thoughts that his rship will be shattered rocks & he became to show some likings towards you but then, when he is back in gd terms with his girl, he dont even text u a single "thank-you" or "goodbye my friend" ? Seriously, im not feeling sour over it. Initially, i felt used. I kept all this to myself because the girl he is dating is someone whom i know. I still supported them and very much wants to help him win her heart back. I picked him up when his reputation was torn to shreds. When everyone starts to talk behind, i tried to stop them. What's all this that he's giving me then? He don't even drop a "hi" now just because u have your own world. People say Girls are hard to read.. I find guys harder to read.
-Again, everyone noticed it but no one mentions it.-
Labels: lucky but not that lucky.