A Nocturnal Reverie

Saturday, March 10, 200710:09 AM♥

the previous entry was updated by lochness,samm.. thank you for that lil surprise. dont do that for everybody ok? *laughs
by the way, s have been really nice. from the food uve cooked, to the lil things uve done. i appreciate. kinda feelin' bad that i wasnt in sch that day.. if u're readin' this, im sorry. also, sorry to A. i truly understand your good intentions for me. but im sorry.. u went down all alone.
people, dont be nice to me.. i have no idea how to return the kindness.
that aside, i have a kind of mixed feelings. should i feel glad or bad?

the time has finally come.. i think i can no longer hold it. i have to rant it out. project project project. what's the use of having 6 people in a group while only half actually contributes? the rest, either idle or do your individual task, but without quality, below expectations. come on, how many times must i say? im tired. i do not have 6 pairs of hands. and honestly, i cannot accept those people who join our group, harbouring the thoughts that we are a strong team and thus, do nothin' but just dream. we might be a capable group but not anymore when some of u dont even put in the effort needed. its utterly disappointin'.. and i would say, im waitin' for the evaluation form. bein' a leader wasnt this difficult until i met u..on the other hand, i try to see this as a challenge, or rather, a lesson. next time, dont come tellin' me, that it would be your honour to work with me for i would only work with those i can trust. for this, i miss samm and joyce. but i would rather be in this shit alone than having u 2 in this shit with me & i mean it. i wish no one whom i love, suffer with me..

trust me. im in a state of shit now. n i feel like scoldin' vulgarities..