A Nocturnal Reverie

Monday, January 22, 20079:20 PM♥

the past of my sufferings..
still remembered vividly..

went abroad, and i naively thought it was the best time to settle my thoughts, and to make the right decisions.
the decision was " To stay". So there i thought, everything would be fine once im back to singapore.
all we needed was time.
nevertheless, it was one sided all along.
i returned to spore only to find out that, he had a liking for someone else.
that someone else was a friend of mine..
after so long..so much for trying to build up the relationship..
how nice to return with the answer "to stay", but only to realise that he had strayed...
so now, i have learnt this...
Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at
yourself a year later for staying when things are not better or wont get any better even if time permits.

so i was that fool.. waited and waited....for the day for him to realise i want nothing but him to become himself, the better self again... i played a role of a guy in the relationship.

what exactly do i want to say?
a 3 year relationship can be nothing after all.
it can also be something u can learn from.
as much as we get hurt in our relationships,
time can heal all wounds.
i didnt believe.. i dared not move on. but look, 1 year later, im here again, sharing the past again.
u will never understand this if u never even try..

To my friends having a hard time in relationships..
like i said, words cant prove any. no hugs, no flowers, no diamond rings can cure.. the only help is yourself.
time again is what u need..
u will find yourself grow along with time.. who knows.. u will even laugh over the past.
we are all young. be brave.. this is how we should live our lives.

after all, it is their hurt that allow us to finally learn how to love others now.

to you,
the one who lied so much,
the one who probably didnt care,
the one who didnt know how to love,
the one who betrayed too many times,
the one who took EVERYTHING for granted,
the one who strayed to the other side and can still have the guts to say, " i love u only".

thank you. ive become twice stronger because of you. :)