A woman who never put airs of any kind, her whole happiness lay in seeing her children grow up in good health and she was willing to do any amount of work to achieve that goal.
that's the kind of mother she is; i cant imagine any other kind that i would rather have.
though my mum dont wake me up,
dont pay my bills,
dont walk me home at late nights,
dont shelter me home when i had no umbrella,
dont ask me "why?" when i had puffy eyes,
dont drive me to school even when im late,
she still keeps the true feminity.
without her, no distinctive family atmosphere will be created..
there would be no one to give expressions of a motherly love.
without her, daddy wont have his status and we children will be nowhere.
she is a very simple woman without any education but she has succeeded in many ways...
it pleases me to think that, my mum's life is indeed a victorious one.
she didnt seem to have any special ambitions.. and i can never remember her saying a single word that would stop us in working towards our own goals/ ambitions.
When i failed my o levels, i didnt know how to brace myself up.
i couldnt face my mother at all. Sight of her expressions accompanied with great disappointments would sadden me more.upon reaching home late at night, i saw the lights of the living room still on. there she was, sitting down without the tv on. i knew that she wants to speak to me. . .
i just sat there, looking so purposeless. i stared in the blank, i didnt utter a single word.
she said that she didnt mind me having that kind of results. she knew that i tried hard enough, especially for maths. she added on in mandarin, " even if u face difficulties like that, u shouldnt escape by coming home late, and not returning my calls. i know u have been walking alone cos' thats what u alwys do when u face sadness, but u must remember, u stil have papa and myself. ok, now that u have received your results, no matter what u still have to move on. why not just retake? dont worry about how others think. "
i said, " i dont want to go back to hong kah, i have no face to do so. i dont want to go to regent, i have many friends there. " ( i was an express student. its no surprise to be egotistical. Having to fail my o level results was a great fall for me)
She continued, " no matter what, dont give up, now go and sleep and think of where u want to retake your o levels. i will help u."
upon hearing that, i rushed up to my room and cried badly. i wondered what was in her heart at that time. she didnt scold me, neither did she show any disappointments. What most i didnt expect was, the next day, she actually went down on her own to regent sec and talked to the principal... she wanted the school to take me in, just so that i could retake my o. but later on, she realised that no matter what she do, i wouldnt go to any government schools. Finally, we decided to enroll into a private sch, chec. father asked someone else to take over his job, mother got all my documents ready... they followed me to the sch to register. i was very touched then.. it became obvious that i was the only one with my parents there. everybody else did their registration on their own. for the next few weeks, dad and mum were there to show their support. they didnt want me to be alone. that moment will be one i will never forget.
then now, people may ask why am i in shatec instead of polys? again, with the support of my parents. my mum knows that i love tourism and nursing.. i could go into nursing but not tourism. cop for tourism in tp was 13. with my l1r4 results, its an impossible. then again, she told me to try out shatec. i asked, " but i failed my o the first time round, now if i go to shatec, wouldnt it be a waste ?" she then replied, " what waste? honestly, your first round of results cant even get u into shatec... and u must remember, this is a changing point of your life, where u have to really think about your future. just do what u like. its not a matter of can or cannot anymore. "
im more than glad that my parents are the decision-makers in my life. on many occasions, they dont bother much about me, just cos' they want me to be independent. but when problems are met, we come together and make decisions together. the support of theirs will walk me through my life.
behind each of us is the love of an infinite number of mothers, mothers who wish for nothing more than we do, their children, live good lives..the health of the family and so many more..
" u have daddy and me no matter what. " in that one sentence, which she would repeat over and over again, i could sense the boundless tenderness of a mother's love. thinking of what my mother has meant for me, i alwys feel sorry for children who have lost their mothers.their whole childhood must be darkened by the loss in ways that it is impossible to measure.