A Nocturnal Reverie

Thursday, October 12, 200611:30 PM♥

expectations are what we live for. dont bullshit to me that u have none. as, being able to live everyday,to be alive tml IS AN EXPECTATION. the very slightest subject can be an expectation,if u realise. i have expectations just like everyone of u. but then again,I DO NOT HAVE HIGH EXPECTATIONS. so why do i go around being told that i have very high expectations(towards relationship),thats why bla bla bla bla bla. so when they are asked, "from how u see it? ". their answers somehow came only aftr certain hesitation. and then when it did came finally, i found out different people gave similar answers. oh,what-the-heck.

from how they see that i have high expectations (towards relationship) :

my results. my standard for studies. ( im either hardworking or lucky to have gotten this far. further more, does this have something to do with how i see relationships? )
wealth. ( so what if my parents own more than 4 houses, more than 5 wheels? this doesnt mean that i want my partner to be the same. ) if i see this as an expectation, the first question i would ask would be " how much do u have in your bank? " or maybe,i wouldnt even talk to u more if i finds out that ur parents own A HOUSE AND A CAR ONLY. so if i ever ask that,it means"pls "f" off." something is really wrong already.
ridiculous.
thus,very silly of u if u were to say that U cant live up to my expectations. having said that, below are my EXPECTATIONS (towards relationship) :
time
trust (my affections for him)
sincere
understanding
natural
most importantly, the guy must love everything else around me(my parents,my friends,even my fishes,like the way he loves me) excuse me,but this wont be tough if im really the one.
wealth? spare coins in case i need it for buses. other than that, NO NEED TO THINK TOO MUCH.im not that kind of girl. i may not be simple but, i pursue an average simple life. if u think u know me well enough, THINK AGAIN. and if u were to realise, looks arent important to me at all. i cant possibly choose that when i have flaws myself.
ive said enough.
expectation isnt a problem. neither should it be an excuse. if u leave, i will just take it bravely that the other party is much more better. Expectations can be altered and arent constant as we grow.. too bad i wasnt understood.