A Nocturnal Reverie

Thursday, October 26, 200610:28 PM♥

"Revenge is sweet" said most ppl.
ive got mine today. sweet sweet revenge.
dearest samm turns 18 today.as usual,birthday girl turned ugly with cake smashed all over.
revenge is sweet indeed,my turn to confess.
yum seng.
its time she hit the clubs n shake her bons.. *whistle
i came in to blog just for u,"mama".

maths test tml. no,u didnt read wrong. ITS MATHS.
f***ingly thought that i will be able to get rid of maths aftr "o"s but hell not,its here again, starting from NUMBERS.
maths in tourism management...oh,wth.
i wonder how they are connected. learning is,was,were,are, is preposterous enough. might i excuse myself to sleep now? (dont laugh, nothing intrinsically wrong here. its super right ok) thus,a very good night everyone.

Monday, October 23, 20061:30 AM♥

assuming that motorbikes were banned, or rather, not invented, how many lives will we not lose?
too many accidents ive heard of, n recently,the death of my two ex-sch mates. due entirely to carelessness and motobikes. i fathom that riders can swear to be careful when riding,still, can they prevent others from coming in their way? its the make of the bikes to be blamed. with that, riders think that they can easily weave in through n out of the squeezy lanes. speed as though they are cycling.. and ride impatiently. hereby,i wanna say my lines.
even if u (riders) swear to all gods above tt u will be CAREFUL, i vouch that u will still fall, if not, die. all worst, fall to death. im not cursing. just that why cant riders choose NOT TO RIDE. when obviously u know,u're risking every parts of your body. motorbikes have the highest accident rates in spore. will riders learn only when someone ard em,maybe their love ones depart from the world because of motorbike accidents? its gon be really late. again, u can say, there are car accidents too.. but,think again. of the make of their vehicles. the weight of it. i dare say its much easier to prevent from the undeserved bad luck. aftr all,what are the safety belts for..u can also say only the rich can afford cars. so u mean theres no trains?no buses?no money,dont ride lar. petrol charges are dear too..u also can say its convenient. i will only agree with this statement if theres a NO NEED for riders to speed to the nearest shelter to avoid rain..Settle down people.unless u're not mentally determined to get married sooner or later. this is not vietnam,u cant squeeze 4 ppl on the 2 seater.. its still early to abandon that bike of yours.still not late to alter ur mind to take class 3 license instead. because if u die, u're only making everyone around u to sustain the pain of ur death.
remember,u will either fall or die or both.
if warningS and examples arent clear enough,try yourself.
-if im rich enough, i will buy cars for all riders... damn.-
one life,live it. (THE RIGHT WAY)
PLS TREASURE THE LIFE YOUR PARENTS GIVE.

Thursday, October 19, 200612:27 AM♥

mr.lim is in fact an efficient tutor.
we've got back out front office paper. it would be a disappointment if i got a "C". and a surprise if i were to get an "A",I thought (initially).
it was 84,an A. made lots of careless mistakes though.. still, i should be satisfied enough as along with thomas,we top the class. nothing great about that seriously. because the better thing is,our foreign students did very well. amy (china) got 2nd in class, and minh tri(vietnam) got a b+. im really proud of them & i mean it.

to thomas, u've got what u wanted. ;) im happy for u. but,here's some lines from me to u. no hard feelings. its an optimistic way to be competitive,cos then will u do well and "settle for the best". but sometimes, humans should take things easy. not to be over competitive. so what if by name we get "first"? its after all, a sense of self-satisfaction that will just hang there.. u're just adding too much stress on yourself man.. and this will get u to nowhere. alwys remember what i say.. a 99 is also an A. 80 is also an A.who cares? aftr all,transcript wont write how many times uve topped the class. right? thus,should just aim for A instead of being the first. guess u will feel much lighter and happier. ;)
the truth of me is, i actually feel happier when my frens around me achieve something great. just like u,topping the class once again. so,in the end,it really doesnt matter if i was or wasnt the first. i think the more important issue is,whether we are recognised or not,by our peers and tutors. so,FLY LIGHT.

stay competitive,but not over.
u will drive alot of us crazy.
friends,tts why im telling u this.
once again,no hard feelings.
still love u la. :)

Monday, October 16, 20067:12 PM♥

group 2.5
OF ALL PEOPLE, proudly presents to you ang faza nurhidayu and charwin!

without them, i wouldnt know what is teamwork,what is friendship,what is determination. no doubt,theirs are stronger than mine. much more. they know when to take things serious,when not to. i didnt know ( i was serious throughout). with them, i spent many nights & days in front of this com. without charwin,i wont know where is kent ridge park. without faza, i wont know how nice is nutella with plain white bread,till im craving for it now. its gon be sad not being able to work with u guys..nevertheless,i will wait upon the day to come,when 3 of us will work together once again. by the way,mr luse said he will be showing our video to other classes very soon. so,HIDE YOUR FACES. avoid stares.still cant believe project can have full marks.. together,we made a difference. love u all.

charwin. WORKING WITH ME AS CLASS REPs NOW.

faza (class reps' secretary) ;)

MISS YOU ALL SOOOO MUCH. meanwhile, get well soon charwin.

Thursday, October 12, 200611:30 PM♥

expectations are what we live for. dont bullshit to me that u have none. as, being able to live everyday,to be alive tml IS AN EXPECTATION. the very slightest subject can be an expectation,if u realise. i have expectations just like everyone of u. but then again,I DO NOT HAVE HIGH EXPECTATIONS. so why do i go around being told that i have very high expectations(towards relationship),thats why bla bla bla bla bla. so when they are asked, "from how u see it? ". their answers somehow came only aftr certain hesitation. and then when it did came finally, i found out different people gave similar answers. oh,what-the-heck.

from how they see that i have high expectations (towards relationship) :

my results. my standard for studies. ( im either hardworking or lucky to have gotten this far. further more, does this have something to do with how i see relationships? )
wealth. ( so what if my parents own more than 4 houses, more than 5 wheels? this doesnt mean that i want my partner to be the same. ) if i see this as an expectation, the first question i would ask would be " how much do u have in your bank? " or maybe,i wouldnt even talk to u more if i finds out that ur parents own A HOUSE AND A CAR ONLY. so if i ever ask that,it means"pls "f" off." something is really wrong already.
ridiculous.
thus,very silly of u if u were to say that U cant live up to my expectations. having said that, below are my EXPECTATIONS (towards relationship) :
time
trust (my affections for him)
sincere
understanding
natural
most importantly, the guy must love everything else around me(my parents,my friends,even my fishes,like the way he loves me) excuse me,but this wont be tough if im really the one.
wealth? spare coins in case i need it for buses. other than that, NO NEED TO THINK TOO MUCH.im not that kind of girl. i may not be simple but, i pursue an average simple life. if u think u know me well enough, THINK AGAIN. and if u were to realise, looks arent important to me at all. i cant possibly choose that when i have flaws myself.
ive said enough.
expectation isnt a problem. neither should it be an excuse. if u leave, i will just take it bravely that the other party is much more better. Expectations can be altered and arent constant as we grow.. too bad i wasnt understood.

Tuesday, October 10, 200612:16 PM♥

i reckoned that friends do come and go.
no matter how much they said they will stay,
they still go.
so its either me or them. BUT i choose not to bother. cos they left,not me.
my friend's list is too long to keep it going on. thus,a blessing in disguise.
a bliss.
auto-elimination,i called that. so bye-bye to you-know-who.
i still rem, i was the one who told u to believe in friendships. but u didnt had confidence. u said friends dont last. see that? self-fulfilling prophecy make yours come true. blame u,not others.
still,i cant comprehend why u left.
nevetheless, goodbye.

now,i really want to see these ppl.
steph (miss talking to u)
adelina ( OUR CERT)
nazurah & brown ( arent we suppose to break fast together? thou im not fasting..)
bobby (soon right? )
and alot more from hkss...

btw,everybodys after love love love.........
i was accidentally in love.saved now. ;)

Saturday, October 07, 200611:59 PM♥

first day back at work. (scotts shopping centre)
the time is slow there,the human traffic too.
thus,we always end up with stories to tell. lots of em.
today,i just had a role of listening.
and i had a sudden pity for victims in a broken family -- The children.
children,i think,are the most innocent ones. they know NOTHING.
and its even more heart wrenching to know something,but cant even do anything.
children are the helpless ones. imagine having to grow up with mama staying tampiness and papa staying jurong east. how is that?
OR papa mon wed fri, mama tues thurs sun.
imagine being invited to "FAMILY DAY" and u ended up bringing ur granny there.
i believe,if marriage and divorce can come easily as it is,why cant people solve their problem in a light hearted way,as easy as it can be done? dont they know that LIFE IS TOO SHORT...learn the m1 way. "one life,live it!". many times,they dont realise,the ones they are harming are those who have got NOTHING TO DO WITH THE PROBLEM -- The children. if problems can occur just-like-that,why not sit down and peace talk just-like-that?
parents should just shake hands and make love,the way they did during their "first time". just rewind back.... dont sign the papers without second thoughts for The children. if not,they're gon be pitied/humiliated for the rest of their life. for the rest, we have perfect families,our daddies and mummies dont fool around... so love them the way they love us. get in mind,i said, love them,not their money. ;)

Friday, October 06, 200611:27 PM♥

its time i can do a part for singapore,by speaking up for no other than SINGAPOREANS. yes,the haze. its really atrocious and terrifying. children cant even play their candles during lantern festival due to the more-than-enough-smoke-and-haze.my perfect eyesight use to able me to see numbers and words from a distance,but now,further than impossible. "well done" to those u know, over THERE. (points towards indonesia). are they burning the trees for a living? is it time that they should stop and consider about the victims,especially US,who have got nothing to do with them,except maybe neighbors?? adding on,we arent really related,except for some diplomatic ties? "hello,we've done nothing wrong...we still trade.." RIGHT?
in singapore,we have to think THRICE whether

we have enough trees
if we have,should we cut down to build roads or infrastructures?
how many shoud we cut?
if we really cut,can the country survive?
greens are really important for us. sigh,probably their trees are like their waters.
but please, STOP BURNING. the burning will burn us to death.we are all intimidated enough. i still want to spot a cat from far...
about TODAY!
ZOO. complimentary.
still,i wasnt really into it. cant fathom why some go really over gaga those animals. i have phobia for animals,still,thats not my reason for not being interested in the zoo. probably,ive gone there more than ONCE? *ahem. we tourism students are SUPPOSE to be tourism ambassadors..so, here it goes : pls go to the zoo. the zoo has more than 10 animals. more than 10 types. and very nice lar. many many things to see ar. monkeys u know! so many ar. so CUTE AR. the weather not very hot lar. and the zoo,very very big lar! whole day also cannot walk finish ar. I LOVE THE ZOO! esp,AH MENG! (ALTHOUGH,i didnt really see him.wait, is it a her? ah,nvm "it.")
oh wells, its complimentary. so,i dont mind advertising for THIS TIME ROUND. ;)
im after all,a SINGAPOREAN LEH.

1:54 AM♥

lets backtrack.was down with fever on mon-wed.. i thought i was gon be fine aftr tues,but hell not.... told thomas in class on wed noon, " hehehehehe,im well! yea! no more sick! but sekali later reach home fever back!" then we laughed. so,self-fulfilling prophecy came true.. had a 38.5 degree on wed night. was that a high fever or what? looked into the mirror n my face looked as though i just had a tanned,a bad one.... i was out of words and lost for actions. no idea what to resort to.. saw the doctor,ate the medicine he prescribed but nothing cured i suppose? woke up every hour to check on the temp. even texted minh tri who was widely awake at 3am with his papers and books... (ya,dont ask me what he was up to! too hardworkg) so,i asked him wad are the symptoms for bird flu and dengue.

he replied" if u have those, u wont be able to msg me now."

ok,so i have to admit,i was being PARANOID. but one thing im sure of is, sometimes,its time that heals. even if u have the best doctor,u wont be healed immediately. ;)
i was fully recovered when the sun came out today. felt extremely contented. thus, had a good laughing session throughout the day. till mr lim pointed at me all of a sudden n said," why ar? are u very happy? for now,u are the happiest girl in class." n then he smiled. oh,was that a title for me? tsk.tsk. i hereby stress that laughters can also be the best medicine. i feel great being well. so to all who arent sick : pls treasure every min.. its much better than feeling cold outside and feeling warm inside. tt really sucks.

ben and jerry's tml.

laughters are priceless. we are born to laugh,not cry.
one advice: Forget what other people think about you -- focus on what you think about them.again,this makes one happier. ;)