A Nocturnal Reverie

Sunday, July 30, 20062:00 PM♥

not a perfect thing to have any names here..
was supposed to work but i played the hotel out. i finally made the choice to stop working for awhile. the job is wearing me out..too tired n sick of it.further more it was a day to celebrate someone's birthday in advance.

went with a happy feeling,left with a sucky feeling. everything happened too quickly. bdae boy invited few frens to his house. FREN B lost his wallet. he found out when bdae boy was out sending his gf home. we search along with FREN B.. couldnt find it.

dad called n said he was ready to pick me up. ard 2am. met up with him n mum at the roti prata stall as they wanted some bites.. then fren A called n asked," can u check ur bag? maybe u take the wrong wallet?". i replied,"pls,my bag is so small n just enough for my own wallet."

mum heard n she asked me wad happen..before i cud ans her,bdae boy called. n asked," can u check ur bag? n pocket. maybe u take the wrong wallet by mistake." i answered," pocket has nothing. hai,u all want to come here n check? ". mum went fury.. she was damn upset by how i was questioned. HONESTLY, maybe i was paranoid,but when i said no it means NO. of course i was upset the way i was asked too. have u ever thought of the way u questioned me? still, i explained to mum n i told her u didnt suspect me. i didn want to jump into conclusions tt u guys suspect me. i tried to convince myself that they were merely just questions. mum said this IS the problem with kids,us. we do not know how to ask questions properly..she thinks that the way u asked was absolutely wrong. n obviously thinking that im the culprit. she as my mum felt hurt that i had become the 'SUSPECT'.

then mum n dad insisted to drop by at bdae boy house. not to make a big fuss out of it. but just to clarify. i wanted the boys to check on me too,thus i agreed to bring my parents there. mum alighted the car n bdae boy immediately shouted at my mum....very rudely. be clear that i wouldnt side my parents for everything if not i wud have told em,"ya that guy suspected me."but i admit bdae boy was damn childish n rude. acted too impulsively..for awhile,it makes me think that,"its not even ur wallet,we have not yet confronted u. not yet opened our mouth? what are u fiercing at? unless u are making me the scapegoat.....meaning.................." well,dont blame me for having this thought. if u can ask me so many questions,now my turn to ask u. "did u take the wallet?" "maybe u keep it in ur house cupboard by mistake? maybe u borrowed huh?" . how will u feel,just how will u feel if u were asked in this way. just because its the first time i saw ur fren B,just because i was an invited guest,should i be asked this way??

picture this ppl.. u are working. n u realised ur wallet is missing.. u ask around INCLUDING UR BOSS. "can u check ur pocket?".

if i were u.

i would have asked it this way.."jocelyn,just now at my house did u see .... wallet?" obviously i would check every part of me..

n how will i take the wrong wallet by mistake? his wallet is black n obviously a guy's wallet. secondly,i didnt even take my own wallet out,how can i take another in by mistake? if i ever did,means im stealing. thirdly,bag is fuckingly small. if u can squeeze in another v3 phone i would bow to u already. not to even mention a wallet..bade boy even told me the importance of FREN'S B wallet. i was feeling disappointed. u tell me all that also no use,i didnt take it..

aftr all,this entry is dedicated to u. sorry to have ruined ur bdae celebration. fortunately ur bdae is actually on 1st aug right? hate my parents if u want,they are my parents. n they were right abt alot of things. abt the way i treat friendships. i kept ours as treasure..but when i rewind back n see the way u shouted at my parents,the way u handle things,i realise....i wanna keep this FRIENDSHIP no more.u can say im paranoid,but can i consider u being even more paranoid when my mum havent even say anything,but u already shouted like an angry old man?when u shouted unreasonably,when my parents n i drop by at ur house to clarify things together,not blaming u for other things.. i thought we were supposed to solve the case of the lost wallet,to find ____ wallet back..not any other issues. maybe ur upbringing is different,thats all. lastly,"check ur own house for the lost wallet."