A Nocturnal Reverie

Wednesday, July 19, 200612:48 AM♥

month or months ago,i was just mentioning that i had enough of attending the wakes. never did i know that i have to attend my uncles's funeral wake... uncle=dad's younger bro. rem bro had his 21st celebration at home? uncle chew as usual,nv failed to attend such occasions. he came with our fav bbq sotongs,chincalok and more. played jokes ard with us..near 10,he left with grandma n rest of the uncles.. 10 plus,received call that he had fainted with cold sweat in uncle sin's car. NO REACTION from him. 10 plus,another call received saying that he was on the way to n.u.h. 10 plus,uncle sin said uncle chew was better,he woke up. 10 plus,call from uncle sin (all relatives to go down to nuh). 10 plus,on the way to nuh,uncle sin called n ask us to be prepared for the worst. eleven,doctor spoke to us. dad asked how was uncle chew. doctor said,"his hearbeat n brain had stopped." dad ask,"so meaning pass away?". i thought question was straightforward enough to have a straightforward ans,something like yes or no. doctor said," for us,his heartbeat had stopped." i was like....MEANING WHAT!? cant he just say yes or no. was he trying to be nice or was he shock..he wasnt confident in talking at all...finally he said,"nurse will prepare for u all to last see him." 2339,pronounced dead.

can u imagine..9 plus,we were celebrating.....few hours later,such mishap came.
our heart ached like hell. uncle chew was only 42 years old. died of acute myocardial infarction. (something like heart attack + jammed everywhere inside). he is the only uncle who isnt married...out of 5 uncles and my dad.

holding his hp now really pains me alot. i was so much younger then..when i brought him to buy his very first hp. nokia 3310. yes,the blue one. i chose the number for him too..till now,i have already changed more than 8 hps,but he is still using the very same old one.he own such simple life. never did he request for more. never did he borrow money from my dad like rest..never did he had any brands.. i requested grandma to let me keep the hp..we have too many memories,but too lil time to have more. his best fren came to the wake n told us,he was unhappy at work,stubborn to see the doctor,taken advantage by his boss............all these,we didnt know at all. if not,probably we could have make him happier before he left,or even prevent his death. looking at his death cert,i must admit,my uncle,is really deceased. its gon be different for the rest of our new year celebrations. everything was just too sudden. we wasnt prepared. we wasnt ready. we didnt know a thing. the very most unexpected..

finally,sorry to those i didnt reply once again..this time round,i really wasn able to. was at the wake with a low batt hp. didnt go home..sorry people. thanks to those who was there. thanks to those who cared. my uncle is really gone...i hope he will have a much better life somewhere else. somehow i dare not say heaven..cos heaven seems too far away.

-no point speaking in details how close we were...it pains me more.