A Nocturnal Reverie

Tuesday, May 23, 200612:52 AM♥

almost to a mth. guys,still rem i used to blog abt my piano exams n how nervous i was? still rem tt i said im gon' be damn sad if i fail? im gon' slam paco (my piano) if i dont make it?
i aint going to do any of the above,because IVE PASSED MY GR8. so tt "well done!" the examiner said wasnt for courteous reasons. they were for real. miss wang gave me several missed calls accompanied with a msg sayg" call me now?" when i was workg. (oh dear,somethings not right. if i passed she would hav text me n just say i have pass. but no............................................she didnt.) i thought she wanted to give me some words of encouragement....i picked up courage n called. she then said," jocelyn,uve made it. but u noe wad...blablabla didnt make it..." i asked,"how abt aaaaa?" she replied,"no.i expected." "and how abt bbb?" she answered,"no." finally i asked,"how many gr8 made it?" miss wang said,"u n g only."
omg..my heart sank. only 2 made it. out of a number. she called as she needed me badly to think for a solution..how to tell those whom she expected to pass,but didnt. esp bbb,a particular girl who had practiced very hard. further more,this was a 2nd attempt for all of them. they failed early this year,n still luck is not on their side. for me,this exam was my first attempt n im counted damn lucky to have smoothly passed it,JUST ONCE.as all shud know..no one said it was easy to attain a gr 8 just after first attempt. higher grades are harder to pass. thus,i declare,im very fortuante. need not spend another 300 or so for examinations n studio fees..ive come so far.efforts. 13 years of learng.(few years learng the basic,2 years for not takg any exams due to olevels,n the rest,one grade per year) from the very DO-RE-MI- & C,D,E.all those beansprouts hanging on the lines...credit goes to miss wang. without her i wudnt be where i am now. as she was the one who gave me opportunities skippg grades n so on..to change the notes for the pieces as my hands cant reach more than an octave. for giving me more than she could..sacrificing her sundays.now,i cant imagine,my childhood dream has come true.still,i hope to attain a higher level now,perhaps dip in performance.. tts another dream for now.Though this might be nothing to a professional pianist,a pianist who had long attained his/her gr8,a pianist who is in her/his diplomas n so on,its more than a something to me,a somebody whom had gone thru so much,strugglg with paco. finally,A GREAT THANKS TO THOSE WHO ENCOURAGED ME THROUGHOUT.some names worth to mention are : steph,lukai,jialun,ron,jieying,brown,vivi,yiting,gek,denah,auntie laycheng,azmi,& faredz! they gave me their warm wishes n motivations.. also,not forgetting weihan,someone i really love! she was with me thruout the period for preparations..calmg me down,droppg by @ my hse to test my scales,n oso accompanied me to sonare for my actual exam.thanks everyone,also to those i forgot to mention. this entry is dedicated to all of you! i hope i made u all proud. :)

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