A Nocturnal Reverie

Tuesday, May 30, 200611:59 PM♥

2nd day of home alone. sunday.

was fine.

3rd day of home alone. monday.

weihun slept over again. also i gave brown his birthday present. i hope he like it. not easy to find something for a male. or easier said,not easy to find a gift for anyone. i did,anyway. btw he is 20 this year.

4th day of home alone. tuesday.

worked n then rushed to jurong to work for dad again..bro was there to help today. aftr that supper with him..enjoyed. we talked abt his fren,his upcoming birthday,chemical romance,our parents,our teachings,about travelling. he sent me back,n left for camp again. so in the end,im still home alone. well,im lookg forward to this fri n sat. fri,after some work,im going shopping with bro. n sat,decent plans with kerui. these means,lesser time at home. btw,not quite a gd job done. one fish dead.

at work....
i told my supervisor," i want to see rainbow..not her."
she replied,"wad talking u!? y suddenly rainbow?"
i answered,"cos rainbow doesnt have black colour,while her face has."

nice analogy? u decide.

i was referring to a non-customer. figure it out yourselves.

Sunday, May 28, 20063:10 AM♥

first day of home alone.

purposely woke up late so i dont have to bid my parents off a sweet bye n bye. mum called at the airport..remind me this n that. i countered all. 1.40,a v.gd fren of mine came to pick me up for lunch. i appreciated his companion. then went to buy groceries for the rest of the days for home alone. tt fren of mine said i was like preparing for the war. how funny..it really looks like it though. went home,slept again. i have no idea if i was really really tired,or i was just trying to numb myself..probably both. i was fully awake at 7,& bro fetched me for district meeting,a meeting i didnt plan to go initially. but didnt want to let my parents down. so i went. at 10,went to mit dear weihun.went for dinner near jec...n two males (stall tender) were betting loudly over me (not the first time) one bet im still studyg,the other bet im workg.so the first came to me n questioned me. i said,"wrong,im not studying. neither am i working. im studying AND working". n then turned to my food n ate with full concentration. wasnt interested to entertain them. unfortunately,i sat @ e table in front of em..so,didnt enjoy my food. it wud be much nicer without their stares,n giggles over me.

played pool aftr dinner.wasnt on form today.n weihun improved,too much. then again came some funny incidents. weihun heard the guys beside our table uttering words abt me..she told me,"u're aimed". i was like duh.......NOT AGAIN. she further added up that she is already used to it(with a sly smile). then i heard them again,using me as their game bet. loser among them will have to ask for my number. dots. lots of dots. so i prepared. i will just smile in a silly way if they ever approach. indeed,they did. i did my silly smile too..they gave up. i won.

so i analysed with weihun. incidents which happened when we both were out together at the same place,jec kpool.
1). ppl talkg abt me loudly.
2). ppl somehow know me..n were guessing my name,"jossccelin or jaslyn or jasmine ar?"
3).using me as bet.
these are just some major ones.

in the first place y must ppl use me as their bet? short girls aint fun to play with lar......its nice to be short. know why? cos i would NEVER FAIL TO ATTRACT STARES N SMILES. im just like an alien,a dwarf. "how nice". and btw,at this time im blogging,dear weihun is camping at my house to accompany me,but SHE'S STUDYING. epitome of an a level student.

-the entertainer-

Saturday, May 27, 20062:05 AM♥

bro n parents picked me up at hyatt ard 8,after work. wanted to dine at swissotel the highest level but well,didnt meant to be as carpark were full.so we went to marina mandrin hotel at 6 raffles boulevard. carpark were full as well thus bro tipped the valet to park for us instead. tt was to avoid the long wait. so we ate our dinner at the hotel..btw the meal was sort of a reunion dinner..n a celebration for attaining my gr8 piano. after tt went to their atrium lounge to chill. perfect ambience i can say. of cos,the grand piano n experienced pianist played a big role. they played many of my fav songs there..even daddy likes it there. anybody wants to date me there? btw i found the hotel really high class,n it had a unique interior design. like somehow of fantasy..its really nice in there. better than ritz carlton,(also one of the nicer ones) six star hotel. so far,marina mandarin is the best hotel ive even been to,in spore of cos.

despite the perfect ambience,the food,the songs,my mood wasnt quite right. was feeling down. further more i have not much plans for the following weeks other than workg...n when i reached home,mum passed me their insurance package n said," anything happens,just contact this number." i tell u.......................i was speechless. n i also warned my dad to take gd care of mum. as she hve low blood pressure,can faint anytime if the oxygen is not enough,or being in a big crowd. well,i should not worry much. everything will be fine. n so,today onwards till 6th,i m the lady boss. im taking over my dad's place. to open the theory classroom on tues n suns n settle everything else tt crops up within the instructors under him. wish me all the best.

-face the wall & then talk alone.-

Friday, May 26, 20061:41 AM♥

gon' miss everbody so much (younger bro n parents).im already damn worried abt my parents.dont know if they can take the weather there..dont know if they will call back to report safety.dont know if they will be careful n not forgetful.this couple now adays turning old,forget this forget that.alil blur..further more they arent good at digital cameras. im afraid in the end they would come back with my cam saying "FILE CONTAINS NO IMAGES".then the whole trip will be a lil waste. im kinda sad.i cant live without them.home alone is not fun to play..eat alone,wake up alone,slp alone,talk alone,watch tv alone,laugh n cry alone,face the wall alone.how "nice".4 storeys,one human.everyday they will be the reason i head home with a smile aftr a sucking n tired day.i guess on sat,i will head home with a sigh...............loner im gon' be.nobody to hear my complains..nobody to joke with.im tt kind of person who gets home sick easily..now,i have "parents' sick" already.its not becos im too dependent..its just tt im used to the closeness.n the habit to dine every weekend night.family days.2 weeks sounds short to u,but not to me.lousy me.i hate home alone. :( thus i will stay out as much as i can.

-parents are my reason for everything-

Wednesday, May 24, 200612:01 AM♥

Education
Diploma in Electrical Engineering Singapore Polytechnic 1999-2003
Commonwealth Secondary 1995-2000
Merlimau Primary 1989-1994

Revelant Experience
2001-2002 Singapore Polytechnic Chess Club Quartermaster
Duties included ensuring club cleanliness and tidiness
Worked for free
2002-2003 Singapore Polytechnic Chess Club President & Acting Quartermaster
Worked for free
2002-2003 Singapore Polytechnic Chinese Language Society Drama Group
ordinary member
Duties included ensuring club cleanliness and tidiness
Worked for free
2004-2006 Singapore Polytechnic Chess Club Advisory Committee
Duties included ensuring club cleanliness and tidiness
Worked for free
2004-2006 Singapore Polytechnic Chinese Language Society active alumni member
Worked for free
1998-2003 Worked part time at Kaneka canteen as canteen helper
2004-2006 SAF Infantry Surveillance
Duties included ensuring bunk cleanliness and tidiness

Relevant Achievements
Voted Best Sweeper 46th PTP/ENH Bravo Coy Platoon 2

Interests
Xiangqi, walking, basketball, reading, writing, weiqi, drama, backstage

so what the heaven is this!? dont wonder. its a resume from lukai a.k.a human of poodle. (my chingay 06 partner), as i wanted a free maid.& i didnt know it was so easy to have one. im so sorry lukai,as i was really just dreaming n joking. did i sound serious? anyway,i want to prove myself tt i can handle. im gon' do it. thanks anyway for ur interesting resume! *laughs.

Tuesday, May 23, 200612:52 AM♥

almost to a mth. guys,still rem i used to blog abt my piano exams n how nervous i was? still rem tt i said im gon' be damn sad if i fail? im gon' slam paco (my piano) if i dont make it?
i aint going to do any of the above,because IVE PASSED MY GR8. so tt "well done!" the examiner said wasnt for courteous reasons. they were for real. miss wang gave me several missed calls accompanied with a msg sayg" call me now?" when i was workg. (oh dear,somethings not right. if i passed she would hav text me n just say i have pass. but no............................................she didnt.) i thought she wanted to give me some words of encouragement....i picked up courage n called. she then said," jocelyn,uve made it. but u noe wad...blablabla didnt make it..." i asked,"how abt aaaaa?" she replied,"no.i expected." "and how abt bbb?" she answered,"no." finally i asked,"how many gr8 made it?" miss wang said,"u n g only."
omg..my heart sank. only 2 made it. out of a number. she called as she needed me badly to think for a solution..how to tell those whom she expected to pass,but didnt. esp bbb,a particular girl who had practiced very hard. further more,this was a 2nd attempt for all of them. they failed early this year,n still luck is not on their side. for me,this exam was my first attempt n im counted damn lucky to have smoothly passed it,JUST ONCE.as all shud know..no one said it was easy to attain a gr 8 just after first attempt. higher grades are harder to pass. thus,i declare,im very fortuante. need not spend another 300 or so for examinations n studio fees..ive come so far.efforts. 13 years of learng.(few years learng the basic,2 years for not takg any exams due to olevels,n the rest,one grade per year) from the very DO-RE-MI- & C,D,E.all those beansprouts hanging on the lines...credit goes to miss wang. without her i wudnt be where i am now. as she was the one who gave me opportunities skippg grades n so on..to change the notes for the pieces as my hands cant reach more than an octave. for giving me more than she could..sacrificing her sundays.now,i cant imagine,my childhood dream has come true.still,i hope to attain a higher level now,perhaps dip in performance.. tts another dream for now.Though this might be nothing to a professional pianist,a pianist who had long attained his/her gr8,a pianist who is in her/his diplomas n so on,its more than a something to me,a somebody whom had gone thru so much,strugglg with paco. finally,A GREAT THANKS TO THOSE WHO ENCOURAGED ME THROUGHOUT.some names worth to mention are : steph,lukai,jialun,ron,jieying,brown,vivi,yiting,gek,denah,auntie laycheng,azmi,& faredz! they gave me their warm wishes n motivations.. also,not forgetting weihan,someone i really love! she was with me thruout the period for preparations..calmg me down,droppg by @ my hse to test my scales,n oso accompanied me to sonare for my actual exam.thanks everyone,also to those i forgot to mention. this entry is dedicated to all of you! i hope i made u all proud. :)

-celebrates-

Sunday, May 21, 200611:43 PM♥

saturday.20th may,steph's bdae/ parents weddg anni.
buffet at traders hotel. not a bad one. after tt we went shoppg ard..n i think that 75% of the females in spore were at town. takg advantage of sales,n not gettg wad they need,i thought.except mum..she bought a nice pair of heels for more than a 100 frm j west.i could wear em too so it was a "yes!" when she asked if she shud get it. haha. i like it. durg e night,it was topps lounge agn. father wanted to tip the pianist/singer but the waitress was blur enough to send the flowers to the another singer. how embarrassing. nevertheless,it was a nice night though tiring. n so,it was the night when i made up my mind to tag along with cousin wj to the highlands of genting. nope,not just the both of us..but also with his frens,my frens in future? we were set to go off on the 13th of june. i happily agreed to as i knew i wont have any more chance to follow as sch is startg at the end of july. i deserve a nice break other than work,and work. parents n younger bro are going off this sat,alaska north america n shanghai respectively. 2 weeks. n me? HOME ALONE. as clyric,my elder bro will be in his camp. tt also means i will be takg care of all the household chores,clearg the roof jacuzzi when it rains,feedg the fish,clearg dead fish(i hope not la)waterg the plants,both upstairs n downstairs.moppg the WHOLE HOUSE. there,my sun no more. mon-fri work,sat social activities,sun,housework. where's my off day? 2 weeks. any maids for free? let me know.

Thursday, May 18, 200611:34 PM♥

woke up at 730 this morng to catch up with my cousin @ isetan private sales@ shaw.i wanted to go as i tot.."hmm private,starts 9am? definitely no ppl" we reached a lil past nine..need not queue as cousin is workg at isetan tcc cafe n she had a secretive path to the sales floor..though the sales was entirely solely n only for vips n members. it was thrilling havg to sneak in through the back when im not even a staff there..fortunately guards wasnt there to check,perhaps they were busy @ the front. I BOUGHT NOTHING! kinda sad n kinda happy.sad because i got nothing after so much efforts to wake up early when my energy level was 0.5%. happy because,AGAIN,i got nothing. (ok,no point sayg.) let me tell u,whole of isetan was like a MAD HOUSE. we have kiasu sporeans,kpoh sporeans,n kia-si (scared to die) sporeans. they were all present. u can picture it..to even queue to try takes u like forever. everywhere was squeezy. IM SHORT enough,n everywhere had ppl..TEACH ME HOW TO SEE. well,mad house jus aint suitable for me. so in the end,we left early n had breakfast instead. btw,i think they shud fine ppl for takg their own sweet time trying in the fitting room during SALES. mad sales it was,i repeat. or maybe i havent seen this kinda of crowd b4 as im workg in a high end boutique..with demure ladies,educated mothers,well-behaved wives coming in..thank goodness.

human traffic....hate it.

Wednesday, May 17, 20061:04 AM♥

feeling fuckingly down. im so sorry that i have to again,use that f word. -no thanks to that kpoh auntie at driving theory classroom..(classroom where my dad hold his lessons,my another house). no fucking idea why cant she mind her own business. i really hate to always discuss demerits of a thing or person..but these ppl wont spare me off a fuckingly tired day. i worked 11-6pm aftr which i took a train down to chi garden,n walked back my other home..u can say tt workg at my kind of place aint tiring at all..y not try? try standing for 6 hours. further more the energy i had lost for the past few days arent replenished yet. thus,the tiredness.
damn. after reachg my "old house" (a term for tt classroom,the house i used to stay alone,with frens,with family.),i saw tt kpoh auntie. i was like,(shits,i hate tues bcos of her)..then i gave a smile. *crossing my fingers,hoping tt she wont say a thing today,abt anything.* ..................immediately aftr tt smile,she cried," aiyo,i will stirke 4d tml lo! daniel! ur daughter just smiled to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! she always had the black face!!!!!!!!"
"F.U.C.K".
i headed into the kitchen....waiting for my thai student...dad amazingly had some free time too..so he took a cloth n cleaned the bar counter..tt kpo auntie commented loudly in front of all the students," u see la, u pampered ur daughter! she only noe how to sit thereeeeeeeeee...see u clean also donno how to help?! gone case.your daughter really not at help.very jialat" (of cos,not in eng. in hokkien).
another "F.U.C.K." how could she say tt in front of me? in front of everyone,n to my dad.
i was pissed,not because she complained abt me,but because she embarrassed my dad. she said it as though my dad really pampered me..well,my dad didnt even defend himself. he said shyly," ya lo,yi bo yong eh la..." (in hokkien,meaning ya lo,she's useless one lar..)

i wanted to say to her:
AUNTIE!! your paper on the table is i put one! the pencils u using is i sharp one!!!!!!!!!!! your book is i file one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!the chair u are sitting on is i carry out one!!!!!!! the toilet u use to shit n pee is i CLLLLLLLLLEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN one. still USSSSSSSSSEEEEEEELLLLLLLEEEEEEEESSSSS!? wen parents oversea who set up the class for u all!!!!!!??? want to visit my 4 storey house?!!!!!!! n u will know whooooooo cleans it apart frm my mum. pampered? ask my parents how much money i take from them!!!!!!! how many worries i had just to take off days at work to be with them!otherwise, mind ur own business old lady.

but hell,something in my mouth pulled my words back. i turned back to the kitchen. tears coming down..tears of anger btw. i didnt wan to disrespect a senior. so i didnt at all.

FUCK,she come here to study or to always complain abt me? once,i thought she was jealous abt me....cos i hav such a succesful family,a loving parents. or maybe she doesnt hav a daugher..sorry to say this. maybe she admire my parents' wealth n health. damn her to the core.
i was hurt when dad said i was useless..so when everyone left at 945pm,i asked dad,if im really not at help,really useless...dad said," ya lo,sometimes useful sometimes not useful." i asked,(holding my tears back)," really? then wad am i here for............................." n we had a quarrel.

i walked out.
under the block of old house,a dog came near me,looking as thou it will bite or lick anytime..as everyone shud know,im fuckingly afraid of dogs n cats, i raised my umbrella up,trying to show tt i will hit it. i cannot belive it....i was so near to a dog,i didnt RUN,didnt FREAK. anger really overtook fear.

when i reached home,i threw myself to the bed n cried. like a silly 3 yr old girl who had lost her way......

if only tt kpoh auntie can stop complaining abt me,every week..if only i knew how much more useful can i be to my dad..if only what my dad said was a joke..

-dinner skipped-

Sunday, May 14, 20065:32 PM♥

CARDIFF, UNITED KINGDOM - MAY 13: Liverpool players, including captain Steven Gerrard (C), celebrate victory at the end of the FA Cup Final match between Liverpool and West Ham United at the Millennium Stadium on May 13, 2006 in Cardiff, Wales. (Photo by Phil Cole/Getty Images)

CARDIFF, UNITED KINGDOM - MAY 13: Jose Reina, the Liverpool goalkeeper, saves penalty and ensures victory in the FA Cup Final match between Liverpool and West Ham United at the Millennium Stadium on May 13, 2006 in Cardiff, Wales. (Photo by Stu Forster/Getty Images)

CARDIFF, UNITED KINGDOM - MAY 13: Liverpool captain Steven Gerrard (L) with manager Rafael Benitez with the FA Cup after the FA Cup Final match between Liverpool and West Ham United at the Millennium Stadium on May 13, 2006 in Cardiff, Wales. (Photo by Stu Forster/Getty Images)

CARDIFF, UNITED KINGDOM - MAY 13: Rafa Benitez, the Liverpool manager, shouts instructions during the FA Cup Final match between Liverpool and West Ham United at the Millennium Stadium on May 13, 2006 in Cardiff, Wales. (Photo by Stu Forster/Getty Images)

CARDIFF, UNITED KINGDOM - MAY 13: Steven Gerrard of Liverpool shoots and scores his sides third goal during the FA Cup Final match between Liverpool and West Ham United at the Millennium Stadium on May 13, 2006 in Cardiff, Wales. (Photo by Stu Forster/Getty Images)

CARDIFF, UNITED KINGDOM - MAY 13: Rafa Benitez, the Liverpool manager, laughs as he drops the trophy after the FA Cup Final match between Liverpool and West Ham United at the Millennium Stadium on May 13, 2006 in Cardiff, Wales. (Photo by Phil Cole/Getty Images)

CARDIFF, UNITED KINGDOM - MAY 13: Jose Reina, the Liverpool goalkeeper, celebrates as he saves penalty and ensures victory in the FA Cup Final match between Liverpool and West Ham United at the Millennium Stadium on May 13, 2006 in Cardiff, Wales. (Photo by Stu Forster/Getty Images)

CARDIFF, UNITED KINGDOM - MAY 13: Steven Gerrard, the Liverpool captain, lifts the trophy after the FA Cup Final match between Liverpool and West Ham United at the Millennium Stadium on May 13, 2006 in Cardiff, Wales. (Photo by Ben Radford/Getty Images)

CARDIFF, UNITED KINGDOM - MAY 13: Liverpool players surround Jose Reina, the Liverpool goalkeeper, as he saves penalty and ensures victory in the FA Cup Final match between Liverpool and West Ham United at the Millennium Stadium on May 13, 2006 in Cardiff, Wales. (Photo by Phil Cole/Getty Images)

CARDIFF, UNITED KINGDOM - MAY 13: Jose Reina, the Liverpool goalkeeper, makes a vital save during the FA Cup Final match between Liverpool and West Ham United at the Millennium Stadium on May 13, 2006 in Cardiff, Wales. (Photo by Ben Radford/Getty Images)

CARDIFF, UNITED KINGDOM - MAY 13: The Liverpool goalkeeper Jose Reina (C) and team celebrate with the FA Cup after the FA Cup Final match between Liverpool and West Ham United at the Millennium Stadium on May 13, 2006 in Cardiff, Wales. (Photo by Stu Forster/Getty Images)

1:23 AM♥

vesak day,12 may. another perfect day for ng family.
along with a few of verde cres family, we went to lunch at the adults' fav porridge stall..i didnt eat much..guess the time wasnt rite for me as it was only 12 something..when i work,i usually have my lunch at 3. after that,dad went massaging at causeway point,mum n myself went SHOPPING.mum got herself some winter clothings that will be useful for her travel to north america,alaska on the 29th this month...i got myself 2 also,thought im not going with her this time round...those were really thick ones..initially,we didnt plan to get..as we had quite alot already..but then mum said u cant always travel to cold places n TAKE PICTURES WITH THE SAME OUTFIT. n then i recalled...

i wore the same winter clothings during :
korea,winter,1998.
korea summer,1999.
italy switzerland france london england,autumn,2000.
norway finland denmark sweden,autumn,2005.

so what mum said was logical..after all,getting 2 new ones are logical as bro will further his studies at america next year n those will be very useful when we visit him.

after which,the whole family went to dine at one fullerton. a japanese restaurant..a 7 course menu. i can say it was very different from the rest. mum wasnt quite use to it,n had very little, so dad bought her cakes from bakerz'in.she had difficulties choosing..so bought 4 in the end. then we took a walk @ clarkquay..

i had a quality time.

13th may.
during the night,we went to mount faber n tried their steamboat there..the ambience was perfect. but the cat almost spoil my appetite. nonetheless,we enjoyed.
LIVERPOOL.they had an exciting game against westham..we won.douglas n uncle peter said liverpool lucky.i told them,"u all always lose already say this kind of thing..alwys biased liverpool..when they won ac.milan u all say lucky,won chelsea,u all say tyco. whenever liverpool playing against some other clubs, u all die die dont want to support liverpool,die die curse pool to lose. ..say gerrard old already(btw,he's only 26),say peter crouch like kangaroo,hop ard better,Rafael Benitez dont know anything...".

finally i asked," in the end? who win?".
"u all support which club? everything except pool?" i questioned.
they ans," no,arsenal".

i laughed.

they then changed the subject.

Friday, May 12, 200611:26 AM♥

dayanah,19f,mixed,silly but cute. she's my colleague,someone who made my day.again,picture this.

rem there is a zebra crossing between isetan shaw house macdonalds & pacific plaza,ex china-black?also, everyone who goes towning should know that the drivers at town doesnt give way. if they stop,it will probably take them another "forever" before they can move on again. thus,mostly cant be bothered. THATS WHY NOW U SEE 2 MAN IN BRIGHT GREENS WITH "STOP" N "GO" SIGN AT THE ZEBRA CROSSING BETWEEN HYATT N FAR EAST. ok,back to story.

we were abt to cross but drivers didnt give way..as usual i used my tactic. i step onto the lines of the zebra,n when the driver still wanted to move on,i took my hand out n signal "stop". (i wont risk my life just by dashing out lar..scare urself for wat? make the driver jerk not to gd lar..) n so the driver gave way..i signal him "thanks". note! HAND SIGNAL. u know what, DAYANAH SAID,"THANKS!". she SAID. quite loud.probably she didnt want me to notice what she just did..but too bad,i heard. i immediately broke into laughters tt could kill ur ear drums..in the first place who will ever do that? i mean,the driver cant even hear! dayanah even look at the driver,nod her head in agreement to my hand signal thanks,AND SAID THANKS. as if the driver can hear...haha.. so we had a gd laugh. fun being with her.. so i asked her,"do u know what u just did? damn stupid. how come u say thanks to the driver IN THE CAR? his window open ar? "..she just laughed. then she told me later in the night,"i cannot imagine lar if the driver in the car reply "YOU ARE WELCOME!". i laughed again.that would be 2 funny ppl from-the-same-planet.

second incident. it was drizzling..& after crossing the zebra, we walked towards the bus stop. we were suppose to wait for my fren to fetch us home from there. silly dayanah stood OUTSIDE OF THE BUS STOP.*she crossed her hands n waited patiently. then *raindrops kept falling on my head.............................................i asked calmly," what are u doing again? raining leh,y u stand OUTSIDE!? then she gave me a "ya-hor~!" look,n we moved inside...i was like DUH!

that happened ydae,after work,after shop,after meal.
i went shopping @ far east with gek,my supervisor.after which, i met up with vivi my senior,n dayanah (paragon colleagues) at shaw house's mac to eat ..then my v.vgd fren offered to send us home. we managed to catch up a lil..he's still very nice. i must say,it was a good night.

Thursday, May 11, 200612:04 AM♥

though i wasnt @ work tt day but the scenario tt my senior described to me was damn funny.i laughed hard.picture this...
cast:
male customer-male.
my colleague-blur nice girl.
supervisor-supervisor

here it goes..

male walked to the counter with display of earrings...:hmm..this one is nice.i wonder if i can get it for my wife,provided it suits her.
blur nice girl:yes sir,v.nice.male:so can i see it?
*blur nice girl tooked out n placed it nicely on the table for the man to have a better look.*
*male didnt pick it up*
male looked at blur nice girl n requested:can u wear for me to see?
*blur nice girl smiled sweetly.*
*blur nice girl tooked the pair of earrings,& PLACED IT ON THE MALE'S EAR.
*NOTE: she placed it on the male's ear.
*blur nice girl then took the mirror for him to see*
*male damned pissed*
*exchanged stares*
*blur nice girl still smiling*
supervisor cant help it anymore but to chap in & tell blur nice girl off NICELY...
supervisor said:"name",he wants u to wear on ur ears,not HIS.
*male was fuming*
male raised voice:AM I SO GAY TO U? N DIDNT I SAY I WANT TO GET FOR MY WIFE? DO I LOOK LIKE I HAVE THOSE LIKINGS FOR CRYSTALS DANGLING EARRINGS?
blur nice girl uttered:im so sorry.my mistake.
*blur nice girl then put on tt pair of earrings on herself n looked thru the mirror.*
*still looking in the mirror,living in her own world.*
*still looking,stroking her hair like "rejoice!"..WITHOUT EVEN SHOWING TO MALE*

the rest...u guys can figure out.bet i will roll on the ground while laughing if i were to witness.but of cos im smart enuf not to do such a thing.

-so when was the last time u had a gd laugh?-

Sunday, May 07, 20063:01 PM♥

SUNDAY. suppose to be a nice one.but my friend goes missing in action..*still missing* called her n her husband picked up n said," i dont know where she went. she went out since last night & she left her hp at home. think she will be back late evening.."
-husband no idea where she went.
-went out since LAST NIGHT.
-THINK she will be back late evening.
husband.....btw i was suppose to meet her in the morning...n she just called to confirm last night.now playing MIA. its not fun at all for me..

so presently stuck at home.but shimin was so nice..she gave tuition to her student @ cck n just dropped by. with LUNCH. so nice of her...

-blessed.

1:54 AM♥

im gon' get my hair coloured/highlighted tml. this colour? or this colour? maybe this colour? or even this colour?if not this colour? perhaps this colour? not going to tell now. surprises tml.

Saturday, May 06, 200612:32 AM♥

so finally,here are the points im hoping for..
they arent expectations,but just POINTS im naively thinking about..though im a dwarf.
-If he's conservative,neat,smart,speaks well, friendly, and proper, he's just my sort!
-hygiene is damn impt.
-He should be fun and social without being immature or laddish.
-my man is refined, associates with a refined crowd, and has a bit of an air tossed in for good measure.
- calm and collected.
-Another quality that draws me to him is his ambition. He should be someone who aims for success and follows the path that will lead him there.
-considerate,not only to me but to whoever around.
-polite to all n respectful towards his parents,my parents,n to anyone who is senior to us.
-someone who cares for the old aged n handicapped. *bonus*
-trustworthy n honest.(come on,this is just the basic)
-non-smoker.(i can help if u are not)
-someone who knows the importance for saving money.
-OF COURSE SOMEONE WHO DOESNT MIND A SHORT DWARF LIKE ME.
-someone who will make me whole.
-someone who will guide me along the way when im afraid of HEIGHTS n .....
-someone who will always make time for his friends and family. and has a tendency to be a little silly. With this cheeky, well-groomed, man, im assured that my life will be a dream!
NOTE:A DREAM.

SILLY ME,no idea what n why im doing this for.long gone the days when i know everything about 'LOVE'.daddy is warning me not to eat too much as ive been putting on lots of mass in my body..mummy is warning me that the skipping rope is still in the shoe cabinet..brothers say,"nobody like girls as short as u!" wth!? family members...but maybe they meant gd for me..somehow their ENCOURAGEMENT(s) scare me..now im afraid i would be left on the shelves..or even,an old lady down the road with no rings n stayg virgin. not yet 18,but im thinking so hard abt it..
i admit,im just feeling envious..those couples..my daddy n mummy.

Wednesday, May 03, 200611:20 PM♥

taken on my bed..the nest where i leave my mess,where i lay my thoughts and set my goals. where i try to dream of dreams that will never come true...where i hide my tears or jump with joy.where i talk to myself,n make myself feel better... where i rest on it comfortably when im unwell & well. maybe it will be somewhere i make my last breadth..super single,just nice for me.

Tuesday, May 02, 20064:15 PM♥

suddenly im freed.i was suppose to perform with my other fellow dancers @ mediacorp for vesak day concert along with wufang students n vincent,their coach but i backout for certain reasons,which only the dancers n my instructors know.they let me go easily,because they had replacements too.so i got it over n done with.everything was super fine not until this childish person came n gave comments i didnt appreciate.n he was someone i didnt even considered "close",thus he should know nothing about me.unfortunately,he loves it his own way,pretending he knows everything.almighty? my foot. let me share what he said. first he said i had no consideration because they had to reorganize everything.i was thinking,"wow! if they all did tt just for me,i must had been an important dancer".but obviously not,because again,we had dancers to fit in my place.an experienced one too.my senior told me,everything was ok.even without me backing out,they will also reorganize..dance is always like that.don tell me just one shot n u can "*clap ur hands!* n say,"thats all".so conclusion for firstly,he dunno anything abt dance.so its kinda obvious here he is not a dancer.

secondly,he kept complaining how much he was hurt physically..n sort of blamed me.ok fine,me again,AS USUAL.i wanted so much to tell him if u cant handle the pain,then quit.stop blaming everyone else ard...is this ur first time performing? so not experienced. then he said he hated me more. what kind of term was tt suppose to mean? u might as well say"i dont friend u". (dumb.super dumb).havent heard such a thing for long..

i may be irresponsible for backing out. but tt was with much consideration,added up with severe reasons.given opinions from my senior n frens..u think i just leave like that? im wiser than u. i just couldnt stay on to perform for this programme..i love dancing,i wudnt do such a thing like that for NOTHING.i didnt want to purposely write a blog to complain about u.aftr all,u are nobody to me.im just unhappy with u alwys thinking that u know exactly eveything,unhappy with u being a big shot,unhappy with u blaming me for almost everything.concentrate on ur own moves n stop being a busybody.u know nothing.get tt in mind.u willl just become a laughing stork to all of the girls if they ever know..cos now,everyone in my dance club know whats with me.for u, its time to improve on n think abt urself. what have u got?i hate to say u...but i hate to hear u always blaming others.hate u to think u are right.u are the last to know. think twice before shooting me. cos u just got shot back,TWICE.

lastly,looking good is not the main factor being successful in life.stop thinking u have got everything,looks,best character..no one is perfect,n u are below imperfect.say all u want...hate me for this entry,but this by right is my blog anyway.

Monday, May 01, 200611:54 PM♥

piano exam wasnt too bad. slips here n there..but aural was well done,examiner said. lets just hope there isnt a knife hidden behind his smile. 1 month later,hear from me again.

i had a great saturday. went out with my elder bro & his army mate, chuang hwee.very nice fellow,just like my bro. anyway still prefer his eng name,seth. shorter. so bro parked at far east,n we walk ard town. he finally bought that adidas shoe he has been eyeing on...269 is the price if im not wrong.that shoe is rare. nice design,nice colour,easy match,n he said its distinctive. i first touched that pair of shoe too when i step into adidas..so,meant to be.perfect deal despite the bomb.

then bro decided to show me the g-shock watch..that tom cruise one. so we entered ck tang..that watch is another bomb..i guess the reason he didnt deal it is not because he had no money,but its abit too much for the day. then,my eyes side tracked. i saw my fav baby-g,the one i have been setting my eyes on for quite a long time. $137. might be considered reasonable,or cheap to certain..but not to me. cos my watches all costs less than $60,thus everytime i see it,i didnt bear to have it. i didnt even dare to try. then on that sat,bro asked me to try. then i thought,ok no harm,just try. see if its nice on me..next,i told the salesgirl,"keep it back.im just trying." BUT bro said,"take it". *no reaction* was how i reacted. i was shocked n touched. cos bro rarely expresses his love to me in this kinda way.in simple,he wont buy me anything,for nothing. i was guilty after that. he loved that g-shock so much but he didnt buy it,he bought my baby-g instead.n how much does he earn being an army? aftr all the sweats n unneccesary scoldings,just a few hundreds. when mum is back,i'll make sure she gon' feel touched too..cos im loved by his son. so everbody,this is an epitome of brother-sister hood.im proud to say that.And a common phrase widely used,its the thoughts that counts.also,that watch wont look any nicer,if he wasnt the buyer.

went for superband recordg on sat night,qi!nobe did a great job.a 37 out of 40.*applause.& they're in! efforts. well done!